today I will run
faster then I ever have
flying past all lions
flying past all the lames
forcing myself away from others
to run this wild race of mine
to free myself from all that hungry
for my blood that is cold in hand and mind.
I give up on caring for other people
I can’t stay still with the one I love..
I have to move and I have wonder
if I will ever find the girl of mine.
but for now I move without a question
to a world I can never define..
and hopefully a girl will pull me under
to stay with her for a life time.
”But I couldn’t stay away I couldn’t fight it I hope to see your face and that you’d be reminded that for me.. it isn’t over.”
You won’t see the tears in my eyes,
the stumble of my walk
the trip in my step
the fumble in my voice..
you won’t see
the characteristics I lost
the memories I remember
the fall after the rise
the run after the rush.
But you should know
that I love you
forever and ever, no matter what comes between you and the world.
I love you no matter how far our finger tips are from each other, spaced between the new wall I belt built up between us. Your amazing babe. I’ll never forget you.
Today I just got to say is wow. I don’t know what I want to do more.. cry, sleep, or smile. I miss her so much, and I know that I can’t be with her.. yet I’m so numb the feeling of pain is almost absent from my mind. What can I say? I guess I’m just way to emotional for my own good? But her Facebook is confusing me. She says random things, yet she said it wasn’t about me.. and I guess I’m just wanting to tear my head apart and throw it away. All I know is I’m moving on for the best and maybe finding myself a girl who maybe I can somewhat understand.
Well wish me luck,
Tiff
